All I need is a car. or someone with a car, who is willing to miss SCHOOL and WORK and DRIVE and pay for their FOOD so I can go to San Diego to see my boyfriend, Paul graduate the USMC. I feel like quitting this whole "relationship". It's not even a typical relationship. April is probably the only month I'll see him for a long long time. I still don't know everything about him that I should. I don't feel like I'm getting to know him any better than if I wasn't in a relationship. This is not the typical relationship. and it is definitely not easy.
I don't have the heart to tell him I can't make it to San Diego, there must be another way.
This is stupid. His parents still don't think we're serious. REALLY? why would i go through this HELL if i wasn't serious about being in a relationship with him. ???.
PARENTS please accept me.
well, i don't blame them. To an outside perspective it does seem weird, "getting together" 1 WEEK before he left.
not TALKING to him not SEEING him. not HANGING OUT with him.not GETTING TO KNOW him.this is driving me crazy.
BUT...
i knew this was going to be hard from the start..
he warned me.
i had people tell me not to.
he warned me.
"Possible long periods without speaking and even longer not seeing each other."
he warned me.
he thought i was the girl that could do this. the girl who was faithful enough and determined to get through this relationship.
he warned me.
i knew this wasn't going to be easy.
&
he warned me.
I tell myself...
to suck it up. I'm the one who agreed to this. Life isn't easy. No relationship is easy.
Look at all the stuff he has to do.
He doesn't quit. and he doesn't give up.
then why should i..?
sigh.....
I just need PAUL to tell me this again..to never quit and never give up.
This "relationship" is not a "relationship"..
It's the journey of becoming a Marine Girlfriend..and the best one i can be.
He needs someone to support him, to love him, to motivate him, to laugh with him, someone to keep him sane, to continue to make him a better person and keep him focused on the good stuff, someone to kiss, someone to hug, someone to stare at in the eyes, someone to miss him, someone to fight for.
I have many jobs.... I am a friend, a student, a daughter, a Den employee, and the toughest job of all....
i am a Marine Girlfriend.